Have you ever danced naked in the rain, or gone skinny dipping? You know that feeling of breaking free…of letting go of restrictions and being who you are, as you are. When you can once again feel water drops on your body as there is nothing left between you and mother nature… It is as if you break free and you can once again feel life, live, be alive… It’s the difference between sleep-walking and being awake.
I think you come alive when you love. Love is the one thing that opens you up. It removes the barriers between yourself and whatever it is you are next to. In LA I was open to the city because I loved it. With friends I know and respect I open up because I love them, so I want to be close to them. And as a person I open up to myself, others and life in general when I love myself, because I allow both myself and others to see me for who I am.
To be who we are we have to let fears, pain and hurt slip away. For us to once again communicate with life, bond with life, we need to have open hearts. If you are numb you will not have the pleasure of feeling the raindrops against your skin. If you are numb you will not feel life. Instead of dancing you will be walking in jerky, discordant movements because you cannot hear the music. Dancing is about becoming one with the music, one with your body and the steps, one with the choreography displaying every bit of what you are feeling when listening to the music.
Right now I feel like I’ve broken free. Like I am once again myself. I feel like I’m finally a true representation of my heart and it makes me incredibly happy and peaceful. Whenever walls come up, whenever I start acting from a place of fear, or beliefs I’ve had about myself and life since I was a child I stop and refocus my attention. I imagine what I would love and open myself up to that, rather than shutting my gates due to fears.
I do love my yellow wellies on rainy days, but I must say that sometimes barefoot is the only way…that true pleasure of dipping your tows into a puddle of mud feeling like you’re five years old again and allowed to do anything you please… And really, the heart should be allowed to do as it please, so that you get to feel the pleasure of life. It should be allowed to be displayed in full daylight so that people get to meet you. The true you. The real you. The beautiful you. The you you live as once you set yourself free.